Blogging without a purpose.

Ok, so at the end of the day when you drop your purse on the coffee table, or empty your pockets on your dresser-- thats what I'm doing right now, strictly in a literal sense. 

I dont usually carry a purse and I'm not wearing pockets anyway.

Basically, just addressing some things on my mind, in short. 

Firstly. 

Insomnia.

At an all time high, not of my entire life, eh maybe, 

but definitely the worst its been in the last 3 years possibly.

The funny thing about not sleeping-

Everyone wants you to try their drug of choice(?!)

And I'm not above saying no at this point.

oh now dont jump to any conclusions. 

I can see why people over dose on sleeping pills and vodka.

They aren't really trying to kill themselves. 

 because let me tell you-

At 5 am, with a collective 4 hours of sleep in 3 days, 

when your staring at the texture of your bedroom ceiling waiting to see jesus, 

You WANT sleep.

Rational thought is outta the question. 

So yeah, I can see why a casual cocktail of ambian and gin may get a little outta hand.

But anyway, I have a new idea. I want to combine something like this

And this

Ok, and some of this...

those are crayons through a hot glue gun by the way. Yes please!

I've always liked collages, their like creative vomit.

It'd be pretty awesome to varnish some of my own pictures to it, yes.

I've never tried one before, I really like art that's unsettling, and intriguing. 

there is nothing more interesting than not being able to look away, 

and yet being uncomfortable with looking.

Agh, the idea of making something like this is totally exciting to me.

First- i need to finish my portrait. 

I'll do that.

Then I'll get started on this.

Ok, maybe not in that order..

le sigh

Ok. I'm cutting myself off short...

I'm tired. 

We'll have a real talk later.